Long time no blog...

Wow, it has been a while hasn't it? I hope you haven't been holding your breath.

A few updates...

• I completed my first half marathon, in one piece. Final time.... 3hrs 3mins...and some seconds. Goal was to finish in 2:45, but hey.... I started crying around mile 10, so I'm happy I finished.

Here's my recap from the race....

My first Half-Marathon... mile-by-mile, play-by-play:MILE 1: great, comfortable pace, looking around at all the people, no pain. My running partner, J and I started our alphabet game to pass the time and we were feeling strong. We got to the publix mile approaching mile 2 and we caught up with the 2:45 pace group. We realized they were doing 2:1 intervals and I breathed a sigh of relief…as in, maybe we can actually keep up with them. (Not so much) MILE 2: is where I hurt my foot on our last training run, so I didn’t have great memories, but I was pain free and feeling strong, so we powered through mile 2 into mile 3 MILE 3: smooth sailing, I knew were coming up on my favorite part of the route, so I was looking forward to that and I still felt strong. We passed hydration station #2 with our awesome BGR sisters cheering us on as we approached mile 4. (Don’t stop the people are watching…lol) MILE 4-5: I was still feeling good, but was def starting to feel the burn in my calfs a little. I love the Edgewood to Eulid stretch, we incorporate that stretch into our regular runs, so I was looking forward to that part, but then all of a sudden, we veer off of Edgewood, go around my fav part and then turn back onto Euclid, just in time to approach mile 5 and climb the filthy Gu stained streets of little 5. But I just go with it. At this point, I was a little tired and ready for mile 6, my running partner and I had a plan, we run 6, walk 5 minutes, run 3, walk 5 mins, and then run the rest. I was ready for the walking part. Although I had slowed down a little, I pushed through to the mile 6 marker and then promptly slowed to a walk. More like a crawl, but I was still moving. MILE 6: J was keeping track of time and pace since my pacer was out of wack. “We aren’t going to make 2:45” She yelled behind her in my direction. Me: Who cares? I just want to finish. She counts down and it is time for us to run again. At this point, I have sucked down about a pack and a half of shot blocks… mistake #1. I know the North Ave hill is coming up right before mile 7 and I am worried. I try to tell my legs to power up the hill and not break pace, but they don’t listen and I stop to walk. (That is not part of the plan!) I get to the top of the hill and pass mile marker 7… Wooo Hooo, half way there! MILE 7-9: I’m super high on shot blocks and start to run again and I fall into step with a BGR girl. We hit a comfortable pace and mile 8 and mile 9 fly by and I am feeling strong (and still high). MILE 9: Time to stop and walk again… and thank you baby Jesus, because my left calf is KILLING ME. I move over to the side and stretch again, I regret it because I know I’m going to lose both of my running partners now, but my calf hurts so bad I had to try to shake it off. J waits for me and the rest of the race was a blur. Partially because of my abuse of shot blocks and sheer exhaustion, but there were tears and lots of grunts and moans. (Note to self: for my next half, make sure you follow the training schedule so that you don’t feel like your lungs are going to collapse). J tried to motivate me…. And she did a great job, but my body wasn’t hearing it. MILE 10-12: I struggled from mile 10 to 11 with a couple of walk breaks in between, and when we finally got to mile 12, I felt like I was going to fall out right there. MILE 13: Why am I doing this? This is sooooooooo dumb! I picked up my feet and dragged my legs, old man- trot style and I got to the sign that said ¾ of a mile… WHAT?! ¾’s of a mile… that is soooo far! I have to laugh now, but that last little bit just about killed me. I got to the ¼ mile sign and I could see the corner…. Just make it to the corner. I could see J crying already and then she disappeared around the corner, I picked up my speed (at least it felt like it) trying to get through that last tenth of a mile, I saw J coming back for me so we could cross together and I saw our friends screaming at the finish line and that made me smile sooooo hard. J and I held hands a hauled our tired asses across the finish line. I DID IT! I finished! 3:03:11… that is my time to beat next time. I was so freaking happy to be done and so proud of myself for doing it. I got my medal, someone slapped a cold wet towel in my hands and that was that. 13.1… done :-)

• J and I are still living happily ever after.
• I started working out hardcore 6 days a week and watching portion sizes and I have lost 5 pounds so far. 
• I'm on vacation out of the country visiting my family, so my goal is not to gain any of the weight back. And then go into attack mode the moment I get back home.
• I'm gonna be 30 in 64 days.... 64 days.

What can you say after that?

xoxo,

Hell is freezing over....plus some money stuff

Hell is freezing over... Because I am posting twice in one day!

lol... yes, I know-- I'm a dork

Anywho, I wanted to take the time to update my financial info on my right side bar.

Here's a quick run down:

Emergency Fund: is still in place, in a 'hands off' bank account. Bad news is I haven't contributed to it in some time, but I am earning a few bucks in interest.

Other Savings: account is  constantly up and down, but I try really hard to keep at least at $1000 and as things come up I try to save for them. Hence few hundred dollars over my $1000 minimum. They goal is to have a steady $2000, but I've had a hard time keeping that up. I'm hoping to bump in up after my big fat tax return check.

Fully Funded Emergency Fund: isn't in my plans to happen until I am debt free, well at least outside of student loans.

Our Wedding Fund: this poor account has seen no love.... well other than withdrawals. With J out of work the money we started saving for our wedding started to be used for necessities like incredibly high power bills and ridiculous traffic tickets.

On to the debt...

AMEX: I have no excuse for myself. Long story short, I ran this card back up. And as always, I have nothing to show for it... other than the bill. The plan to is knock this out when I get my tax refund and put the card in the freezer so I won't be tempted to swipe.

MBNA: Remember this is the 0% interest card that I used to transfer a big lump some from my personal loan.This card honestly should have bee paid off by now (had I not run the AMEX back up) But as the other, I will pay this one off with a lump sum I will get back from taxes. Just in time before the 0% deal ends.

Personal Loan: My next payment will bring me under $10,000! Yesssss!! I have just been paying the minimum on this as I try to attack the other two (unsuccessfully, but still in the works.) Once I get the other 2 knocked out I will work on stacking on the payments to get this one gone as well.

Overall, I am doing better than I was doing when I started this blog. I started out with about $25,000 in debt and my current balance now (outside of my student loan debt) is $16,492.04. Seems like that number should be lower, but I will take it.


By my birthday in 143 days, my goal is to be down to: $9,000. Which I think is completely realistic. The only reason I'm not being even more aggressive is because I want to save some money for an engagement ring. I'm going to have to start a new secret blog to talk about that. :-)


Not to get completely off subject, but it's funny. I was so angry at J last night and this morning. Like really angry. I didn't post the details, but I was angry to the point that I realized the honeymoon is definitely over (we have honeymoon moments, but the actual 'vacay' is so over.) But after talking to her this morning and sharing my anger, internal battles and issues and watching her listen and really SEE me, I realized what we have is irreplaceable and as angry as I was, us talking about made it go away.... and I still want to marry her, like really wanna marry her. lol.. Isn't that funny? Our relationship isn't perfect, in fact it has been pretty fucking hard from time to time, but we are both so invested, so vulnerable and so willing to communicate, that even in rage we can figure it out. Relationships take work and effort and honesty... I guess a part of me is a little afraid that this relationship will crash and burn just like the last one, but what I am learning is, I am a work in progress and I have to make a conscious effort to not loose myself and that part is just as important as communication with her and putting forth effort.


Ok... that's it. That's all I got. See you soon.


P.S. Feel free to click on the donate button on the top left of the page and show me a little bit of love... or a lotta bit, your call. :-) Thanks a million!

xoxo,

I'm obese

Yes, that is is right. I am obese.

I'm back on Weight Watchers. I literally just rejoined 5 minutes ago. During the process of signing up online I had to put in my height and weight information and out popped my BMI info.... and taaadaaa.... I'm a fat little piggy, or just plain old obese.

This weight battle is a royal pain in my ass. Weight Watchers has worked in the past, so I am going to give it a try again. The last time I weighed myself  I was 217lbs (also know as OBESE....ggrrrr). Can you believe that back in May of 2010 I was at 168lbs?

That is 49 lbs.

I must do it this time and KEEP IT OFF FOREVER.

I have to.

I will be 30 in 152 days. Simple enough right?

My first Weight Watchers meeting is this Saturday, so lets round it up....my goal is to loose 50 pounds in 150 days.

50 pounds in 150 days.

If you've got any words of advice.... I'll take it. Pray for me guys. I will try to be better about keeping you guys posted along the way.

First things first... get my obese ass to a meeting.


xoxo,
 

Wedding dresses, marathons and getting older...

Hello again!!

Sooooo.... remember that wedding dress I was dying to try on? It looked horrible. I never considered myself very tall....but the the dress hit my ankles. Ridiculousness.

I've tried on a few more since then,  but no "OMG I NEED THIS DRESS" moments quite yet. I'll get more serious as we get closer, but first things first, we have to make it official and get engaged. Now just to get the money to buy it....

Ugh.

That is a whole other story. Money. J isn't working, she is however getting unemployment and still has a nice chunk of change in savings. But I'm a little scared. What if when the money runs out she still isn't working? We'll be a 1 income household and that means money will be tight... which also means spending 2 grand on a ring is out of the question... at least until there is some stability. I have faith in her and her skills and her motivation.... and the universe of course and I know that everything will workout perfectly and we'll have all the money we need plus some.

The next update..... since weight loss is always a struggle for me, J had the idea that I focus on a goal instead of pounds lost. Sooooooo we both signed up for a half marathon. 13.1 miles. Why? Why would you want to run for 13 straight miles?? lol! Why not!? I've ran for years, but never long distances. I ran 5 miles for the first time ever this past week... it feels amazing, so I'm going to keep running. The weight will come off.

And what a perfect time to do this..... 30 is coming up hard and fast and I'm going to be in the best shape of my life. Promise.



xoxo,

It's not Friday yet...

I have soooo many things I want to talk about.

First that I really, really miss G who is out in the middle of no where serving in the Peace Corps, and How J and I celebrated our 1 year anniversary in Miami during a big lezzie pride weekend 2 weeks ago, and the wonderful weekend we had in NYC as I accompanied J to a career changing and inspiring workshop this past weekend. 

(breathe)

But, the number one thing is how I am beginning to absolutely despise my job.

Ok, not really my job, more so just my dick-head boss.

Ok, maybe my job too.

Any who...I'd love to elaborate on all these things, but I am literally looking for jobs as I type this and also working on another little project for my side business.

Sooooo I'll get into that more later.

On another note...

Here's a little something that kinda made my day this morning....

It's not a huge drop in fact it is tini-tiny considering the last time I weighed myself... but with the rate that things have been going, I'm happy with this number.

No, I don't want to talk about the drinks in Miami, or the Chinese food, pizza, hot dogs and more in New York, or the fact that I have only workedout twice in the last 2 weeks.

Why is it so hard this time?!

I think it may be time to join LA Fitness again. I keep going back and forth with this. I have a gym in my apartment community, but it's nothing special (2 treadmills, an elliptical and weights) and it takes a shit-ton of motivation to get me there because it's sooooo boring. If I have my gym clothes in the car and I'm paying LA Fitness 30 bucks a month, I should have a tad bit more motivation, no? Or is this just another cop-out excuse to blow some money?

Don't know, but I shall keep you posted on what I decided.

Have a wonderful day.... I'll be back very soon :-)


xoxo,

Friday Weigh-in…

1.6 lbs lost

It’s a start.

I’m more proud of working out 4 times this week and eating much MUCH healthier than I had been eating before.

Baby Steps.

Have a wonderful weekend!

xoxo,

Friday weigh-in...

This morning talking to J on the phone... "I'm only 20 pounds away from being on the Biggest Loser"

This is bullshit. I gotta do better.

xoxo,
 

Meltdown…

Forever 21 was the culprit.

About a week or so ago J and I went to the mall to look for a birthday dress for her… it was normal enough, shuffling through clothes, wondering what very petite midget wears the mis-sized clothing floating on the racks, when I spot what seemed to be a very large (even by forever 21 standards) misplaced, beige, 3x, strapless dress.

I jump for a joy on the inside because I was under the impression that their plus size line had been pulled from most of the stores in my state. I proceed to walk around the store to find MY section… it’s a pretty big store, so when I spot someone with the yellow lanyard hanging around his neck I stop and ask…

“excuse me, do you still have a plus size section here?”

The underage twerp rolls his eyes, chuckles and says … “Um, no.” As though I have asked the most ridiculous question in the world.

I immediately shrink to about 2 inches and typical me my eyes swell with tears. I swallow back the tears and keep it moving because, number one I don’t want J to notice (which of course she does) and number 2, I feel like I don’t get to be sad and my feeling don’t get to be hurt, I got to this size on my own, it’s not Forever 21’s fault… or the douche bag that just saw me as another chubby girl in a skinny girls store.

J and I are so connected that she notices that something is wrong and when she asks it all spills over… I hate feeling bad about the way I look. I hate that I can’t buy clothes in regular stores. I hate that I let myself get this big again. The part that sucks the most is that tears are running down my face and I want to go eat something…I don’t wanna work out or try to change, I just want to crawl in a hole and eat.

Why is it so hard? Especially when I know I can do it because I’ve done it before. It’s just so frustrating because I did this to myself… again.

I’m at my highest weight ever and I can’t seem to find the motivation I need to get the weight off for good.

I need to loose 55 pounds…. That’s so intimidating.

It’s depressing.

But such is life…. Time to put my big girl panties on and deal with it. I just have to put one foot in front of the other and do my best. I have to start now. I don’t want to be the girl that has a meltdown because there isn’t a plus size section in the trendy store.

First thing, I am going start my weekly weigh-in back up. Friday mornings, starting next Friday, I’ll weigh myself and I’ll post it right here. I gotta have some accountability, I can’t keep hiding and pretending like it’s not happening.

Second thing, I am going to commit to working out 4 times a week 4 hours total. Doesn’t matter when or how, but I have to get it in.

That’s it for now… in the meantime, if anyone sees my motivation wandering around can you please send it back to me??

xoxo,

Lazy and fat…

I shouldn’t say things like that about myself. I'm beautiful and perfect the way I am.

But seriously.

It’s true.

I am back up to 200lbs.

What the fuck.

I want to make up excuses and reasons as to why, when and how. But the reality is… I’ve been lazy, and it made me fat. Again.

Sn: I ate 2 chocolate chip cookies and 2 packs of milano cookies before noon.

So here is the very simple 4 step process that I need to adhere to…. Starting now.

Step one:
Stop putting random, unhealthy, unnecessary CRAP in your mouth.

Step two:
Write down what you eat. You need to be held accountable. You can’t be trusted.

Step three:
Remember that place you used to go to all the time? Some people call it the gym? Go to it. Immediately.

Step four:
Blog about it. Weigh in weekly- track your loss. If you don’t write it down for the whole world to see, you’ll ignore it and the cycle will begin again.


Simple enough. Right?




xoxo,
 

It’s gonna be a bright, bright sun shiny daaaaay….

I haven’t written is so long (again). I so miss blogging. I have just been wrapped up in one thing or another over the last month and haven’t taken the time to just write.

Now I am. So here goes…

I’m excited about a few things right now. I finally moved into my very own, very awesome apartment this past weekend. I really really like… it’s just enough space, it’s contemporary… and it’s MINE! I’m pretty sure I mentioned this before but this is the first time that I have ever lived alone. It’s only been 3 days, but let me tell you it’s effin awesome! I definitely miss having G around, but getting dressed in the living room while watching Good Morning America makes it kinda worth it… lol, it’s the simple things.

On another note, I will be going to Germany to visit my family in about a week in a half.

I CAN'T WAIT!

I’m soooo very excited. Vacation. No work. Family time. Did I mention no work?? It sucks that J isn’t coming… I’m going to miss her so much.

Speaking of J, things are great with her. I’m so in love…sigh… and it feels so good to be loved back. We’ve shared a lot of great experiences in these short 4 months… we are still learning a lot about each other, but what I find is that when you have a real connection with someone everything just falls into place.

Life is good and I am so very happy, but my life feels just a little disheveled, with the move and the constant ‘going’ but I am grateful for each new opportunity that comes my way. However, there are a few things that I want to focus more on over the next few months....

1. Work on my book.
2. Exercise more.
3. Read more.
4. Write more.
5. Create more.

The honeymoon stage of a new relationship is amazing :-) … but it also changes priorities a little. I am grateful that my beautiful girlfriend is a creative soul and understands how important it is to not lose yourself in your relationship. Maybe we can create a new date night… like a themed date night. “Work on your book Wednesday” or “Create a new dish Monday”… The idea is to still spend time together, but to spend that time creating and being productive… instead of only making googly eyes and getting fat… lol. *Aah new love*


I also recently started taking a class with G (J is taking it too, just in the morning): Science of Mind 101. It’s really enlightening and refreshing to have this positive energy in my life. It’s a discussion on how the mind is a powerful force… and how what we think/speak is what we attract and experience in our lives… and how we can be more positive and attract more fulfilling experiences. It really is good stuff... I'll have to go more into it as the class goes on.

Well, I have to go… I need to apply to be on MasterChef. How cool would that be in I got on the show?? :-)

I’ll keep you guys posted.

Talk to you soon! :-)

Back on the wagon…

Financial diet update:
A lot has happened over the last week for me financially. First- I took out the loan for $20, 000 to pay off my credit cards… the percentage rate is still a little high (9.25%) but quite a bit lower than the interest on the credit cards.

This is kinda disturbing, but after taking out the loan, I still had about $2,900 outstanding balances on credit cards (the max amount for a personal loan was $20,000) - so I held my breath, closed my eyes and withdrew the $2,900 from my savings account to pay it off. The good news is, I now only (only??) have $20,000 in debt- and just the one loan (besides my student loans) to pay off. The bad news… my savings has shrunk considerably… but at least for a good reason, so I guess technically there is no bad news.

I have also (finally) removed the little plastic devils from my wallet- for real this time- and I have placed them in a safe place at home where I can’t make frivolous spur of the moment purchases.

I can’t remember the last time I have had zero balances on my credit cards…. Wait, maybe that is because I never have had zero balances on my credit cards.

Regardless, it feels good to know that I am making progress in the right direction. Now, I just have to stick with it. I want to be debt free- at least free of credit card debt by the time I am 30. I want to get married and buy a home and be able to afford to have kids and have a good life…. I don’t want to constantly be worried about what I owe to whom.

I’ve updated my finances in the column to the right. The Donate button is still up and running, so if you are able to, please donate whatever you can. .50 cents, $1.00, $5…. Whatever you can it would be greatly appreciated!

Weight-loss diet update:

Nada.

I’m getting fat again.

Holding steady at 183 and I haven’t been working out.

I’m trying desperately to get back on the wagon. But I have gotten sooooo lazy. My plan is to go to the gym every night this week and not to have any soda or junk food. Can you belive that? I started drinking soda again. *shaking my head at wasted empty calories*

I have to do something quick- J and I are heading to Vegas this weekend for her Cousins wedding and I need to be able to fit into my dress… it’s a little snug right now. :-/

I’ll let you know how it goes…

Wish me luck!

How did I get here????

Lol…. Seemed like a good title….

Updates:

I have earned a whopping $6 so far through my donate button. Thank you for getting the ball rolling!

I didn’t have much luck with selling my fat girl clothes- I had 3 huge trash bags full of clothes to sell to a second hand shop… and out of all the stuff I had they only bought 5 items, and get this… they only gave me 6 bucks for it!! I’m going to try one other second hand shop and whatever is left after that I will donate to a local woman’s shelter. (Epic Fail… at least the women at the shelter will be happy.)

My next project was to consolidate all of my debt with a lower interest rate.

SUCCESS!

Finally, I was able to get the ball rolling on something! I actually wound up taking out a $20,000 loan from my credit union at a 9.25% intrest rate to pay off all my random credit card debt. I went back and forth on weather or not that was the smartest thing to do, but in the long run having a lower interest rate and making one monthly payment going to make this process much easier and faster! So by Monday morning I will be free of credit card debt! Woooohoooooo! (Ok, I replaced it with a loan, but still- it’s nice to not have maxed out plastic in my wallet.)

One step at a time.

Next…. Remember all that weight I lost? I’m slowly gaining in back, I’m up to 182lbs, my lowest weight was 168. Time to get back on the wagon- I never reached my goal of 165lbs…. so I’m gonna try this again. It should only take me about 8 weeks or so- I’m a pro at this now ;-) (Literally laughing out loud- Oh really? Then why do you keep gaining it back??)

But that will have to wait until next week…

I am going a road trip with J… we are leaving tonight and coming back on Sunday.

It’s a TWELVE HOUR drive.

Ugh.

Not looking forward to the driving part. I’m excited about the trip though, I’m going to meet the family and we’re attending her cousin’s reverse reception (reception is before the wedding…. Plus, I love spending time with her, so being cooped up together in the car won’t be bad, especially since we got the final book of Twilight “Breaking Dawn” on CD to listen to in the car (yes, we are big ol’ dorks!)

So Bo voyage, until next week….. hope you all have a lovely weekend!

“I am in a financial cul-de-sac” –Carrie Bradshaw

Sooooo, after 1 year and 5 months, 104 posts, numerous comments, a blog award, lots of complaining, giggling, bragging, sadness and budgeting, I have finally decided to add a DONATE button to my blog.

Yep, I’m finally that desperate.

It can’t hurt right?

I need money, moolah, dinero, cash, cheddar, bread… whatever you wanna call it. If you can donate .50 cents or $100 dollars, I need it. My budget is getting tighter and tighter, but my debt doesn’t seem to be going down AT ALL.

I’m trying to be creative and find another way to produce some additional funds- I have got to get these credit cards paid off. I am truly just like Karyn in “SAVE KARYN” (which is an awesome book by the way- check out the link)…. $20,000+ in debt at 28 years old- I can’t really enjoy my life because I’m stressed about my money.

I refuse to live this way forever.

So why should you donate your hard earned money to me?

Well, you read my funny, witty, charming blog for entertainment (I hope) and let’s face it… I NEED HELP!

I get it, we could all use a little assistance, but if you are willing and able- I (and American Express and VISA) would greatly appreciate it.

In the meantime…. I am going to sell my fat girl clothes, apply for part-time work as a server (instant cash), start working on my book, and start playing the lottery (can you hear the sarcasm? I’m keeping my fingers crossed anyways)….

Thanks in advance for your help!

I made my vision board a while ago and I include some gratitude letters on my board… I thought it would be a good idea to post them here as well… what better way to release my intentions into the universe??

Today I make this promise to myself:

I choose to live my life as a joyful experience. I choose to keep my mind focused on love as the greatest power in my life. I choose to create greater possibilities in my life than I ever imagined before.

I listen to the wisdom of the voice within me, knowing it is Divine Intelligence at work in my life. I keep my mind and my heart open; Ready to accept joy and success however they appear.

I celebrate these ideas as the truth in my life, now and always.

And so it is!

I am grateful for….
The abundantly loving and fulfilling relationship that I have with my spiritual partner. She is beautiful, kind, caring, supportive, dependable, responsible, faithful, strong, motivated, creative, spiritually enlightened, sexy, amazing, family oriented individual that loves me unconditionally. Our relationship is strong, we have a foundation of trust and genuine love for one another. We balance each other out and our spark is forever ignited. She is affectionate and she finds me to be incredibly sexy as I do her. We are so in Love and we have the most amazing sex. The chemistry between us keeps us forever attracted to one another. We have a beautiful life together. We are financially stable and we take care of one another. When I look in her eyes I am overwhelmed in our love. I can depend on her just as she can depend on me. Our souls grow together and we are forever connected. Our children are healthy and happy and they are raised in love, compassion and tolerance. We are wonderful parents and the support of our families; friends and our children’s father allow them to grow to be beautiful, responsible, truly good people. I am so very grateful for my abundantly satisfying life.

And so it is…

I am grateful for…
My amazingly satisfying career. I love my job and I am financially stable at my $80,000/yr salary. I have no debt and my savings is abundant. I am able to help people through my work and it is also very creative. I am my own boss, and I do not manage any employees. My business is very lucrative and I receive bonuses above and beyond my salary regularly. It is a competitive market and I am at the top of my field. I work hard, but I have a great work life balance. I am able to take vacations regularly and it does not interrupt my business. I feel good at the end of my work day and my work stays at the office. Money is not an issue in my life and I am stress-free. I am so very grateful for my successful, fulfilling and satisfying career.

And so it is…

Weigh-in Friday…

196.6lbs

I’ve attempted to write a couple of times in the last couple of days, but for one reason or another I’ve gotten sidetracked and said, “I’ll do it later”

Accountability…. I know.

Probably part of the reason I haven’t been writing as much. It’s not as fun to write about eating crap, not working out and gaining weight, oh and being broke!

I am headed back in the right direction now. I think. Or at least, I want to.

I started working out again this week after not working out for 2 weeks.

I started back with a cardio kickboxing class… that wasn’t a good idea, I about died in that damn class. I worked out again on Wednesday… (I successfully ran a mile in 10 minutes!), and I worked out again last night.

But I have to be honest, I didn’t want to do it AT ALL.

Once I was at the gym and working out I was fine, but after I left I didn’t have that high that I normally get, it was more like dread thinking about doing it again the next day.

What is that about??

I have been buying more organic foods, so that is good, but newsflash to me, just because it is organic doesn’t mean that it doesn’t count!

I don’t even wanna talk about the finances. I’ll just say this, I got paid yesterday and I’m already broke!

I hate when that happens!!

With all of my trips coming up and miscellaneous stuff here and there the money is spent before I even get it!

Oh well.

I’ll be traveling to Florida for next week work , so I’ll probably be M.I.A. again for a little bit.

Have a wonderful weekend everyone!

Weigh-in Friday??

Ok… it’s not Friday, but I didn’t forget about it- I’m just on strike!

I’ll weight in again next Friday, I promise!


I totally forgot to mention “Julie and Julia”… the last time I wrote.

I went to go see it last weekend with H. It was SOOOOOO good! I actually went out and bought Mastering the Art of French Cooking Volume 1 and 2 the next day (don’t worry, I got it on some crazy sale- I only paid $11.99!)

You should really go see it!

Anyways…


Here are those Badgley Mischka shoes I was telling you about…

Cute right?!

Well, after doing my budget for the month this morning (which I have updated on the left sidebar), I think I’ve come back to my senses. It’s not that I don’t want those beautiful things, I do, but it doesn’t allow me to reach my goal of getting out of debt and going on all these trips at the same time.

Especially after I just made a $935 payment to pay off credit card #1 again! I used it for my work trip and some other miscellaneous shit that I probably didn’t need.

You’d think I would have learned by now.

Whatever.

It’s paid off again, and I realized how important that zero balance is to me. So no Dior glasses or Bagdley Miskcha shoes.

I have no shame is saying that I will be hitting up Canal street in NYC though! A knock off for $30 bucks sounds like a good compromise to me! Ok- definitely not knock-off shoes (EVER), but a bag and some glasses won’t hurt!

I sound shallow, but I’m really not. Material things don’t bring you happiness, I get that. But it’s all so pretty! :-)

Anywho… with that said. I am really missing my family. So the money is better spent going to see them and doing things with them at home. I’m so excited about spending Christmas with them… can’t wait!!

Have a wonderful weekend everyone!

Weight loss challenge day 4… and day 5…

Where to start… hmmm…

Well. First I’m feeling extremely bloated. This means that b***h Aunt Flo is on her way again. This is not good for the scale.

Oh, and I know today is Weigh-in Friday, but since the weight loss challenge goes through today, I am planning to weigh myself tomorrow morning.

My beloved Angel M….to make a long story short, I did this challenge by myself. She only logged her calories for 1 ½ days and only worked out twice this week. What can I say? I can only motivate her so much. Shit, I still have to find motivation for myself! I love her dearly and of course I support her 100%, but she’ll come around when she is ready. Health and weight loss is very personal, and everyone has to make the decision on there own to commit to it.

For those of you who are new to my blog, I am not one to hold my tongue. AT ALL.

However, I’ll take my bitch factor down just a little and not yell at her…. That wouldn’t help anyways! The truth is- I can’t even complement her on trying, because she didn’t try. I am by no means perfect, and I could have done better this week myself, so it’s not about that. It just a little disappointing because I know how strong she is and how easily she could have completed the challenge if she tried. But in reality, I have been there too and I know, it doesn’t matter what anyone says. So my plan is to back off a little, but encourage her to be healthy.

So anyways…

Today is the last day of the challenge!

I have a extra challenge ahead of me this evening. I am going to dinner and a movie with H.

Yikes!

Ok, it’s not that big of a deal… but lets be real, even when you make good food choices at a restaurant, you are still not 100% sure what goes in it to create the final product. I’m gonna take my chances! I’m hitting the gym before dinner, so that should definitely help.

Oh, guess what I’m going to see?? Julie and Julia! I’m so excited. I read the book a while back, so I am looking forward to it!

Have a wonderful weekend everyone!!

Weight loss challenge day 3….

Woot Woot! Only 2 days left to go!


Calories were a little bit on the high side today… 1500, but it is still within my limits. I was not feeling the gym either, but I went and did my hour of cardio. I had intended on going to kickboxing, but I got to the gym early and did my hour of cardio (elliptical 45 minutes, and stairs 15 minutes- trying to give my shins a break) and was pooped so I went home.

I’m meeting M at the gym tomorrow, so I’ll get a another good workout in.

Completely random…

Grey’s Anatomy season premier is September 24!! Woooooo! I can’t wait!

Have a good night everyone!

Weight Loss challenge Day 2…

I have ice on my shins….

It hurts. Ugh.

I guess I am running incorrectly or something. It’s weird, because when I am running or working out or whatever it doesn’t hurt, but when I stop I get these shooting pains up my shins. I iced them yesterday too, so maybe that will help a little.

We’ll see how it feels tomorrow…but don’t worry I WILL get my hour of cardio in!

I’m doing well with my calorie intake- 1450 today. I had a major sweet tooth at work today, but I made due with dry cereal, fruit loops to be exact!

I got in another hour and 15 minutes of exercise today. I did Cardio Kickboxing and then ran a mile on the treadmill (hence the ice). It was a good workout nevertheless… I burned 650 calories!

Tomorrow is day three… the week is almost over, and I am feeling GOOD!

Weight Loss challenge day 1….

Today is day one of the fitness challenge for M and I!

Wooooo Hooooooooo!

Ok, maybe it’s not that exciting, but the 5 day challenge is off to an excellent start! :-)

We are both logging our calories in sparkpeople.com and sticking to our limits.

I did Jillian’s 30 day shred DVD this morning, and I went walking/jogging with G this evening. Total about an hour and 15 minutes of exercise today… not too shabby, I’m ahead of the game!

Wish me luck at work tomorrow