Tuesday, March 31, 2009
I’m sleepy today, and I am fighting the urge to snack. I’m not even hungry, but always around this time (its 4pm) I get the munchies! So I’m not going to give in AND I’m going to go to Cardio Kickboxing tonight. How you like that! Anyways, I have been spending most of my day doing research for our Europe trip next summer. I am so freaking excited about it. I have always wanted to go to Greece, and I am finally going! Here is the plan… we will leave fly to Frankfurt first spend a few days with my family and get over the jet-lag. (It will be close to my birthday too, so that will be nice.) Then we will take the train to Paris and stay there for 2-3 days. From there we will fly to Rome, spend 2-3 days in Rome and after that possible travel to another city in Italy (maybe Venice or Milan or Tuscany) we would only spend 1 night there and then fly to Athens. Spend 1-2 nights in Athens take in all the major sites, and then travel to some fabulous Greek Island, maybe Mykonos or Santorini… or even Lesbos. (how funny is it that there is an island named Lesbos!) We will be traveling for about 18 days… it is going to be so awesome. It is over a year away, but I am just extatic!
Friday, March 27, 2009
Ha! I remembered to write today. Consistency is the word of the day ladies and gents! I keep looking at the clock because I am so ready to go… it’s 2:37pm. I’m not going to the gym today…. I am going to the mall instead. That could be why I am ready to go! I am treating myself today, getting my eyebrows done and hopefully buying a coat. Well, not really a coat… more like a short trench or something similar to that. I have been wearing my jean jacket to work everyday for the past couple of weeks… and well, it’s not always appropriate! I need something thinner than my winter coat and something dresser more business like than my f’n jean jacket! So that is my mission today. Oh, and the grocery store. I got paid on Thursday… so the money is burning a whole in my pocket. Don’t worry; I know what my budget is! It’s not very much, but I can work with it. I haven’t used my credit cards in about 45 days now….. Wooooo Hoooooo. Seriously, it’s like, “Hello, My name is [Getting Close to 30] and I’m a credit-card-aholic.” Good news is I am seeing results, about $2500 paid off since the beginning of the year! Anyways… my Dad called me yesterday. I guess I haven’t “went there” yet in this journal. Apparently, it’s a go with his business. Someone agreed to give him more money to give his business another whirl. Club promotion more or less… it actually doesn’t sound like a bad plan, but damn there has been a lot chaos and mayhem on the way. I have a very “interesting” (for lack of a better word) relationship with my Dad. Don’t get me wrong, I love him very, very much. But you know that family member that can never seem to get there shit together? That’s my Dad. He actually asked if he could put up the title to my car for collateral. WTF?! (Please don’t hate me Dad if you ever read this) I lied and said my car still isn’t paid off, so I don’t have the title and it can’t be put up as an asset. Truth is, good old Nelly has been paid off since about May of last year. I paid her off a year early and I think I even mentioned it to him in passing at one point or another… hopefully he forgot about that. It’s not that I don’t want to help, it’s just that I don’t want to be taken out as “collateral damage” if the shit hits the fan. I know I should be supportive and do everything that I can, but this is the same man that asked if I would take out a $100,000 line of credit to “help” him out (WTF!?). I can only afford to be emotionally supportive at this point in my life. It’s just draining. He’s a good man, and a good dad… but it’s just draining.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Apparently consistency is something I have a problem with- it’s been a month since I last wrote… and I’m back on the weight loss wagon. Again. I’m not even going to try to recap what happened in the last month that I didn’t write… I barley remember what I ate yesterday! So on to the Present! I am writing this as I eat plain lightly salted rice cakes… yum! 2pm-5pm is the toughest time to get through!! That is when the cravings start… and let’s be real, who wants to munch on carrots… or rice cakes for that matter! It’s all about a lifestyle change…. Don’t gorge yourself. Small portions, and be active. One thing that I have noticed is that I am not tired all the time. Don’t get me wrong. I HATE getting up in the morning, but once I’m up I’m okay. One thing that I have noticed it that I have been having a lot of “Ah-Ha” moments lately; okay, maybe it’s the same one; I just have it everyday at the gym….hahahaha! Seriously, I have to force myself to go to the gym, I usually don’t want to, I usually want to go eat something that my fat ass doesn’t need… but somehow I make it to the gym! I usually start slow, and kind of dragging, but then I get this burst of energy and the epiphany comes… I CAN DO THIS! I can totally fucking do this! I can lose weight and feel great, and look FABULOUS in a bikini! That epiphany gets me through a 45min (sometimes an hour) workout and I leave feeling great and I go home and I eat something reasonable and healthy. Go figure! That is until the next day and the same cycle begins again. As long as I can continue to have this cycle, I might actually do this! I was reading an article in Redbook yesterday about a woman in her 40’s or 50’s (I can’t remember) who was successful in every aspect of her life, except losing weight. Every goal she had set for herself she was able to attain it someway or another, but for whatever reason, she could not lose the weight. That made me have another “Ah-Ha” moment! I am successful in every other aspect of my life (for the most part), I mean, I’m 26 I like my job (most of the time) I made $55,000 last year, I’ve been with my girlfriend for 4 ½ years, I’m planning a huge trip to places that I have always wanted to go, I’m getting out of debt- I have a plan and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel….. so WHY? Why can’t I lose 50 measly pounds?? I can, I know I can… but what’s the hold up, why am I having such a hard time? That is the question of the decade.