Tuesday, June 30, 2009


Financial diet…

Today is the last day of the month, so I thought I should update my financial status. Things turned out a little better than I had hoped because I finally go the extra 8 hours of pay for Memorial Day…. Extra money is always wonderful!!

More good news… I will have my emergency fund fully funded by pay day this Thursday.

Also, I finally took the time to consolidate some of my debt. I got a fixed rate 9.8% credit card from my credit union- so I am in the process of paying off credit card #2 and #3, since they had the highest interest rate (13.61% and 19.99%).

**random thought- I had to go to the credit union yesterday to pick up a $10,333 check (with my name on it-Holly shit!)- So that I could deposit it in my checking account and pay off my credit cards. For a second I thought about all the things I could do with the money if I just ran away. (Major shopping spree, multiple vacations… etc.) But then I decided I couldn’t run too far with 10 grand, so I just went to my bank and deposited it! lol :-)**

I have updated everything in the side bar to reflect these changes. I have some big balances to knock out now, but I see a light at the end of the tunnel so I feel good about it!

On to my “weight-loss diet”….

I haven’t been to the gym since…

…Since I don’t remember when. Let me look it up….

Okay, I haven’t been to the gym since last Wednesday.


That is no good!

I only had a one day weekend, and after work yesterday I was sooooo exhausted I went home and got in the bed. The gym was the last thing on my mind.

I plan on going to the gym tonight and every night for the rest of the week. So hopefully things will balance out!

I don’t want to talk about food. I have discovered something though- when I eat crap, I usually feel like crap too. I physically feel heavy and lethargic.

You’d think I’d have learned my lesson by now.

Whatever! Today is a new day! :-)

One last update…

I hung out with my little this past Sunday. We went to go see Transformers.

I’ll just say that it was very interesting. *Lol*

She talked a little more, but I didn’t expect too much, especially since this is our first time hanging out together. She seems to be a good kid though.

I picked her up from her house… where she lives with a shit-ton of people. Seriously. It was a full house…. The uncle, the “Dad”, 2 brothers, 2 sisters, Mom, Grandma, Great Grandma…. Only thing that was missing was a dog or two.

If anything I’m sure she was a least happy to get away for a little bit.

After the movie- I told her I was giving her homework… she has to come up with at least one activity that she wants to do with me. A little while after I dropped her off, she sent me this text message….

“I want to go to the mall”

Lol… we are going to have to work on her texting- etiquette. So I guess our next outing will be to the mall.

My kind of girl! ;-)

I hate to cut it short (you know how I love to ramble)… but I have to get back to my slave labor for the day.

I hope everyone has a fabulous Tuesday!

Friday, June 26, 2009

Friday Weigh-in



Slowly but surely the pounds are falling off!

After the last 2 weeks I have had, I’m a happy with this number. I am going to push to get out of the 190’s.

I think it is time for me to set a new goal.

I want to get down to 188 lbs by Friday, July 17th.

That gives me 3 weeks to loose 6.8 pounds.

I can totally attain this goal! No problem.

Before I go any further, I have to acknowledge my weakness for food. I need to understand why I binge.


I ate not 1 doughnut, not 2 doughnut, but THREE doughnuts this morning!

Seriously? What is my deal?

I need to promise myself, that when I have a craving for something not to deny myself… because when I deny myself I do stupid shit like this!

Now that I got that off my chest I can move on towards my goal.

Happy Friday everyone! Hope you have a fabulous weekend!

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Michael Jackson's music was the soundtrack to my generation...

I just wanted to pay my respects to the King of Pop...

May you rest in peace.

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Big Brothers/Big Sisters and Skydiving….

Yes, I am volunteering for the Big Brother/Big Sister program.


Sporadic, crazy, control-freak that I am; I am volunteering to be mentor.

When the match coordinator called me to tell me that they found me a little, he told me a little be about her... she has had quite a past at such a young age. Her hobbies are talking on the phone and texting, her favorite food is hot wings, she’s an A and B student… and she is shy.

Sounds easy enough.

I met my little on Monday. She is an eleven year African-America girl, we’ll call her JJ.

Our first meeting was supervised by the match coordinator. We had to do some icebreakers and fill out an info sheet on each other. Maybe it is just the age, and the pressure of the first meeting with me. But the conversation went something like this…

Me: Are you as nervous as me?
JJ: No
Me: * nervous smile with a stupid giggle*
Me: So JJ, what do you like to do?
JJ: I don’t know
Me: Hhmm, well what do you do all day now that you are on summer break?
JJ: Nothing
Me: Do you have any hobbies?
JJ: No
Me: * nervous smile with a stupid giggle*

So maybe this will be a little tougher than I imagined! I know it will take time to develop our relationship… I just am trying to figure out what in the world to do with her!?

So at the end of our first meeting we decided I would pick her up on Sunday for us to hang out. I asked her what she wanted to do, guess what she said? Yep. I don’t know. Lol… too cute!

I sent her a text message on Tuesday (since she likes to text) saying…

“It was nice meeting u and ur Mom yesterday! Would u like 2 go 2 the movies when I pick u up on Sun.? If so, is there anything u want to see?”

Six hours later she responds with this…


I was literally laughing out loud.

This is going to be interesting.

I’m totally looking forward to it though. I have a feeling I am going to learn a lot from this kid!

On to Skydiving…

R, my gay boyfriend is going freaking skydiving for his birthday (which is coming up the first week of July). He has a big group of friends going. G is even going! Seriously, G is going it’s already confirmed! I kinda do want to do it, but I am TERRIFIED! I think it will be an awesome experience, especially to share with a group of great friends… but seriously? SERIOUSLY??

And of course it’s not free… it’s $139 for the jump and then $90 for the video/pictures of the jump.

So we are talking $229 to JUMP OUT OF A PLANE!

** I just spent $200 on shoes and a dress- and for the record the shoes nor the dress could possibly kill me, so I am definitely keeping them both!**


I. don’t. know.

I have until Tuesday to decide. Right now I don’t think I am going to do it.

What do you think? Should I jump out of a perfectly good plane with a stranger attached to my back??

We shall see!

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

The last week and a half….

First my birthday…

I am freaking 27 years old!!

It’s so weird. I mean I know I’m an adult (and have been for a while) but I’m soooooo close to 30! I’m not afraid of 30 or anything. I just don’t feel ready for 30. It just seems so… official. Does that make any sense?

Seriously- I have 3 more years to go, so maybe I’ll grow up in that time??


The beach was amazing! I know I said that already, but it really was!

We drove down on Friday Morning. I drove C’s car with C and D and my Girlfriend drove her car with G and H.

*Completely random- but my girlfriend and I do not have the same taste in music AT ALL, so it’s best that we didn’t ride 4 hours together! I’m Frank Sinatra, and Beyonce and she is Shaba Ranks and “Ghetto sing-a-longs” (as I like to call them- you know what I am talking about)*

So anyways, we got down to the beach around noon and checked in and got the keys to our beach house. The house was literally right next to the beach. We had an awesome view of the ocean from the upstairs deck and an outdoor shower…. It was really cute!

Once K and R made it to the house we grabbed some food and then headed out to the beach. It was so freaking hot! So of course we had to bring the umbrellas for the black girls (sorry if I am offending anyone! It’s a bad joke that we have… I love being in the sun. My girlfriend, G and C insist on shade-lol. FYI- I absolutely wear sun block- 70spf on my face and 45spf on the rest of me every 2 hours!) You should have seen us trying to get those damn umbrellas up! You wouldn’t think it’s that complicated! By the end of the weekend we finally had it figured out… but wind still tried to flip it up a couple of time. Too funny!

Saturday was my birthday. G and I got up and went jogging on the beach. It was actually fun and I got a good workout in. I needed that workout too because H made me a chocolate cake and it was delicious! My friends are so cute they had everything setup when we got back from the beach that morning. My girlfriend got me an awesome Polar heart rate monitor that I have been looking at. C got me Jillian’s book “Master your Metabolism” (because she’s knows I’m a little obsessed with her right now!), G got me some gardening tools (which came in handy when setting up the beach umbrellas!!) a bracelet and some cute candles, H and K and R both got me Target gift cards. They are all so sweet.

It really was a good birthday!

**until G turned into a raging pmsing monster! (Love you G!) Seriously, I was pmsing too and didn’t know it- it was just a bad combination! **

I’m going to skip over the part were I got completely trashed (by accident) on champagne and cosmos and wind up puking and crying after a game of Phase 10. I don’t remember much of it anyways!


After my fabulous birthday weekend I had to hop on a plane to Texas for work. It was uneventful for the most part.

***Oh- expect for this one really discussing random thing. I found out that I am grossly allergic to pears. One of the dishes we had to prepare was this poached pear salad. We had a couple of pears that we didn’t need and I was starving so I cut a couple slices off and ate while I was working. I immediately started feeling weird and oddly nauseous . I’m thinking, “oh. Shit. I can’t be allergic to pears too!” Long story short, I didn’t make it to the bathroom, so I puke into a trashcan in the empty conference room. I know, I know. That is so gross and way too much information, but I had to share because it is so freaking weird!***

****I really need to work on my random sporadic thoughts!****

Anyways… back to Texas…

I did workout in the hotel while I was there. I did an hour of Cardio on 2 out of the 4 days I was there. But I didn’t write down anything that I was eating. Better than nothing I guess!

So that is what my last week and a half was like. Another year older… and already back to work. Boo.

My Mom got back from her vacation today, so I finally got to talk to her. I seriously have the best Mom ever. :-) I can’t wait to see them.

I do have some very important news to share, but I will have to share tomorrow, because I actually have to do some work now.

It involves the Big Brother/Big Sister program and Skydiving.

And no the 2 are not related, I think you have to be 18 to jump out of a perfectly fine plane. :-)

Monday, June 22, 2009


First, I finally weighed myself.


no comment.

Second, I went shopping yesterday.

Shoes and a dress. (really, really cute I might add)

Third, I’ve been eating whatever I want. Like yesterday I had full fat Haagen Dazs Mint Chip Ice cream, and then I had popcorn for dinner. I’m not even going to discuss what I ate when I was out of town for work or at the beach!

I did better today. I went to the park and ran a mile and walked 2 miles then and I had Chipotle for dinner (burrito bol-yum!).

I think that is all the confessions for now.

Oh wait. And I really miss my Mom and Sister. I mean I always miss them, but I haven’t talked to my Mom all week because she is on vacation with her boyfriend. And I have been talking to my sister like everyday since she is at home by herself and that makes me miss her even more. :-( I am planning a trip to go home for Christmas, so at least I have that to look forward to. It’s funny, because no matter how old I get it never gets any easier.

I have a headache… so I’m going to cut it short. I am back to a regular work schedule next week, so I should be back to writing regularly.

Have a wonderful evening!

Friday, June 19, 2009

Weigh-in Friday??

No weigh-in today.

I'm still out of town for work.... soooo I'll have to weigh myself tomorrow morning.

I have worked out the past two days in the hotel; 1 hour cardio each day. Hopefully that will balance out the food that I have been "tasting" at work. I also got my monthly gift from Mother Nature, so I'm crossing my fingers that I haven't gained since last weigh-in. *sigh*

I'm so ready to go home.

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Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Another year older

I wanted to write sooner, but let's just say I was majorly hung over on Monday coming home from the beach... And well sleep was more important at that moment!

Apparently at 27 I still don't know how to handle alcohol. Good thing is I only blew chunks one night, the other 2 nights I was sober (for the most part).

Other than that little episode I really had a blast. We literally laid on the beach all day for 3 days. (I'm nice and bronzed!) And the house we rented was right beside the walk way to get to the beach... Seriously like a 1 minute walk.


On a side note, G and I had our first "fight" too. Really it was more like we were both pmsing (and didn't know it) but it's all good now. :-)

I'm posting from my blackberry because I'm in Texas for work so I'll have to share more details about the trip later.

OMG! I got my match for the Big Brother/Sister program. It should be very interesting. I'll share more later about this too.

Time for me to get back to work!

Have a wonderful day!

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Friday, June 12, 2009

Weigh-in Friday!


Not my goal, but not bad!

I'm posting this from my blackberry- so hopefully it works!

I'm beach-bound! Have a wonderful weekend!

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Thursday, June 11, 2009

Mission accomplished!!


I did it! I freakin did it!

5 hours of Cardio *check*
Blog a minimum of four times this week *check*
Write down what I eat *check*

I am super proud of myself, regardless of what the scale says tomorrow morning, I did my best this week.

You guys have no idea how POOPED I am. You should have seen me at the gym last night. It literally took every ounce of strength. Plus I didn’t want to blog about being a failure, so that was motivation as well. This morning wasn’t as bad. I stayed my fat ass on the treadmill for 65 minutes. I walked at various inclines, did sets of sprints (at 8.0!), and I RAN A MILE…

Holy SHIT!

I ran a mile (at 5.8!).

I had the idea of a “Last Chance” workout in my head, and well, I just kept running. (It certainly helped that I had 8.0 marathon man and sports bra and booty shorts girl running on the treadmills beside me. What? Don’t skinny hot people make you want to at least try to keep up?) Mind you I haven’t run a mile (without breaks) in well over a year, so this is something to be excited about! The only thing is- now that I know I can do it I’ll have to do it again. Ugh. Not exactly looking forward to it, because, well I HURT.

Seriously, my legs, butt, shins and calves are throbbing just a little.

OMG, completely random thought. I will have to do another post sometime next week about all the not so nice things you see at the gym in the morning. Seriously, is it necessary to parade your old wrinkly ass around the locker room BUCK naked? I mean I know it’s a locker room and everything but there are towels and all sorts of cute cover-ups you can wear while you put on your make up and do your hair. Seriously!


I am happy to report that I decided that I am going to bring my workout clothes to the beach. Depending on how hung-over I am, I may try to get up early and walk/jog along the beach a couple of days.

Today is going to be hectic, but it doesn’t matter because tomorrow at 7am I will be heading to the beach!!

Have a wonderful weekend!! Talk to you guys on Tuesday when I get back! :-)

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

3 days left!

Well, technically I have 1.5 days left because we are leaving early Friday morning, so I won’t have time to workout then and today is almost over…so 1 ½ days left to shed these pounds.

I do have some good news to report. I got my full hour of cardio yesterday, and I did 30 minutes of weights. And I ate really well yesterday, oatmeal for breakfast, a salad with turkey and Balsamic vinaigrette, fruit for snacks throughout the day, and 2 pieces of Tilapia (about 3 oz each) and mixed veggies for dinner.


I have more good news to report. I got my ass up at 5:15 this morning and did 90 minutes of cardio! I burned 757 calories this morning…. Holly shit that is pretty good! I did the Elliptical for 45 minutes, and then I did the treadmill for 45 minutes. I think I am slowly becoming more fit, because I didn’t feel like I was going to die on the treadmill. I ran at 6.0 for 11 minutes (not straight through 5 minutes, then again for 6 minutes) then I walked at 3.8 at a 5.0 incline for the rest of the time. I know it doesn’t sound like much, but this is much better than what I was doing before!


I even wrote down what I ate yesterday and today, now I just have to log into sparkpeople.

Looks like I am on a roll! I keep telling myself that I only have 1 more day, I just have to suck it up and do it!

I’ll be heading back to the gym this evening after work for another hour of cardio. As of this morning I have a total of 3 hours of cardio in the bank. After this evening I’ll only need to squeeze in one more hour, which means I will have to get up in the morning again because I have to work late tomorrow and my best friend N is flying down tomorrow night, so I won’t really have time after work.

I actually can’t wait to get on the scale. I just know I am going to have a major loss!

Cross your fingers for me!

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Four days left…

I’m back on the wagon.

For real this time.

The last few days I haven’t been doing a well as I hoped. I haven’t worked out since last Thursday. I could have gone to the gym yesterday, but I pulled weeds and clipped the bushes and gave myself a manicure instead. That means I currently have 30 minutes banked towards my 5 hours of cardio this week… 4 ½ hours of cardio remaining to reach my goal.

I know.

That is the past, and I can’t do anything about it. But these next four days I still have control over, so tonight I am going to do a full hour of cardio and I’m going to do at least 20 minutes of weights. I am going hard and heavy on fruits, veggies, healthy grains and lots of water today.

I am keeping track on one goal though… this is my second post, so I have to blog at least 2 more times in the next 4 days and I will reach that goal. Now, I just need to start paying attention to the other 2 goals that I set!

I can do this.

I guess you can tell I had a good weekend.

The cookout was awesome, we had a great turnout. I put on my best Martha Stewart Hostess face and I had a blast. There was plenty of great food and, OMG… I forgot to tell you….

My girlfriend surprised me with a brand-new grill!

At first she was against the whole thing. She said, “I don’t want a whole bunch of people in my house.” Lol… whatever.

So Sunday morning she gets up early and says she has to run an errand. I get up after she leaves and go downstairs to start cleaning up. She gets home and we are standing in the kitchen and she starts opening the blinds facing the backyard and she is just chit chatting like nothing is up and I look up and there is a brand-new shiny charcoal grill sitting in the backyard. She is so freaking cute!

I most definitely have the best girlfriend ever!

So anyways… the cookout was awesome! Lots of friends came, we ate, we drank, and we played Taboo and Spades (boo, I hate spades)… and when everyone left there wasn’t that big of a mess!

This week is going to go by super fast because I have so much to do before we go.


I am so excited and looking forward to this weekend!

One of my best friends from high school, I’ll call her N, is flying down on Thursday night to go with us to the beach. C and I haven’t seen her for 5 years! She is in the Air force and she has been stationed overseas for most of that time. I can’t wait to see her!! It brings back so many good memories. N and C and I were attached at the hip for most of junior and senior year of high school. I also think it’s cool because my girlfriend and G get to meet her… nothing like all my worlds colliding. H has already met her, back when we were in college. Two other friends are coming too, K and R…. they are another lesbian couple that came with us to the beach last year. They all mean so much to me, so it’s nice to have them all together!

I am sooooo ready for the beach; I am in need of some major relaxing beach time.

Until then, I am going to work hard at losing these last 7 pounds.

Wish me luck!

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Where did my motivation go?

I have 6 days before I have to weigh in again…. and 3 simple rules to follow, I can do this!

I have to be honest; it hasn’t started off all that great. I soooooo did not what to workout yesterday, but I did. I only did 30 minutes on the elliptical though, but I guess that is better than nothing at all.

I wonder where my motivation went??

I didn’t eat too bad yesterday, but I didn’t write down what I ate yesterday until this morning, so I’m sure I forgot something. And I’m guessing my portion size at dinner was too large…but it was good! I had Black beans with brown rice and grilled shrimp.

After I post this I am going to log my calories for yesterday on sparkpeople. I have got to get my shit together!

I doubt I am going to have time to workout today… depends on what time I get off. Plus, I have a birthday party to go with my favorite Gay boys. I’m giving myself a 2 drink max… and I am going to try to eat light but load up on fruits and veggies.

I have to lose this week!!

Friday, June 5, 2009

Weigh-in Friday!

No good news today…


Which means I gained about 1 ½ pounds.

What the hell am I doing? I am so close to my birthday goal weight and I am f**king it up!

What did I do wrong this week?

Well, for starters I haven’t been blogging as much, and I haven’t been consistently writing down what I am eating. Not to mention last weekend at the cookout were I ate 2 hamburgers, a hotdog, pasta salad and lasagna all in a 24 hour period. Or how about when I ate popeyes the other day and didn’t blog about it??

One thing I will say is this blog forces me to be accountable.

Okay, I am a grown ass adult trying to loose weight and I know what I need to do. I shouldn’t need a cyberspace dairy to keep me on track.

I wish it was that simple!

I seriously considered lying about my weight today… lol. Ok that would be stupid and only hurt me, but I want to do well, especially when I know people are watching.

I kinda knew a gain was coming; I even worked out twice yesterday, once at 7am and again after work, hoping that would help. I guess I should have thought about that earlier in the week!

Sooooo, I need to make some changes this week…

1. I need to write down everything I consume (how else will I know how many calories I am taking it??)
2. I need to try to blog at least 4 out of the 7 days. It will make me reflect on how I am doing.
3. WORKOUT! I need to get in a minimum of 5 hours of Cardio this week.

Seems easy enough. Lol

I’m not giving up on my birthday goal yet. I know 7 pounds is a lot to lose is a week, but that doesn’t mean it is not doable.

So, the first challenge will be this weekend- we are having a cookout at the house.

I know what you are thinking… “A cookout? Look what happened at the last cookout!” Is that going to allow you to say under 1200 calories for the day??

I don’t see why not. I am doing all the cooking, so I know what ingredients are being used. I am buying whole wheat hamburger/hotdog buns and I am making turkey burgers, black bean burgers, and pasta salad. I’ll have to take it easy on the pasta salad and the beer, but other than that I think I will be just fine.

Wish me luck…

…and have a wonderful weekend!

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

What a weekend!

I had so much fun this weekend; I don’t even know where to start!

C and I drove to another state 3 ½ hours away to go to a cookout with a bunch of friends from high school. The cookout was at A’s parents house. We grew up hanging out at their house so it was very fitting. There had to be at least 30-40 people there. I still can’t believe that it has been 10 years since we graduated from high school. The funny thing is we are all still very much the same.

There were 5 girls (including me and C) from Cotton Club. Yes we are almost 30 and we still claim our “gang”! It is pretty funny, I must admit- but it has kept us close all these years.

So the highlight of the weekend was our bright Idea to get “CC” (for cotton club) tattooed on our right hip.

Yep, we really got a tattoo.

Hahahaha… I’m still laughing about it!

We are officially stuck together forever…. And now there is proof!

Yesterday I spent my day lounging out by the pool. I love this weather… blue skies and the bright sun, nothing beats it.

G, my girlfriend and I are planning on having a cookout at our house this Sunday. Nothing fancy, just a bunch of friends coming over for some hamburgers and hotdogs. I’m looking forward to it!

I am going to be working out hardcore this week, I need to reach my birthday goal… and it is coming up quick!

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