Weigh-in Friday…

196.6lbs

I’ve attempted to write a couple of times in the last couple of days, but for one reason or another I’ve gotten sidetracked and said, “I’ll do it later”

Accountability…. I know.

Probably part of the reason I haven’t been writing as much. It’s not as fun to write about eating crap, not working out and gaining weight, oh and being broke!

I am headed back in the right direction now. I think. Or at least, I want to.

I started working out again this week after not working out for 2 weeks.

I started back with a cardio kickboxing class… that wasn’t a good idea, I about died in that damn class. I worked out again on Wednesday… (I successfully ran a mile in 10 minutes!), and I worked out again last night.

But I have to be honest, I didn’t want to do it AT ALL.

Once I was at the gym and working out I was fine, but after I left I didn’t have that high that I normally get, it was more like dread thinking about doing it again the next day.

What is that about??

I have been buying more organic foods, so that is good, but newsflash to me, just because it is organic doesn’t mean that it doesn’t count!

I don’t even wanna talk about the finances. I’ll just say this, I got paid yesterday and I’m already broke!

I hate when that happens!!

With all of my trips coming up and miscellaneous stuff here and there the money is spent before I even get it!

Oh well.

I’ll be traveling to Florida for next week work , so I’ll probably be M.I.A. again for a little bit.

Have a wonderful weekend everyone!

Maybe a litlle melodramatic...

I think I'm over my crazy spell... at least for now! :-)

Seriously, I'm feeling much better. I just haven't had time to write because I've been working like CRAZY.

I'm actually about to go to sleep because I have to be at work at 3am. Yes, 3am.

Ugh.

Next week will be much better.

I'll have to update you on everything else later.

P.S. I weighed myself this morning... 196.8lbs. :-(
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This isn't a "cheery" post... just real life

I know we all have our days... But my days seem to have turned into weeks.

Aunt Flo is a Bitch and so is all this emotional shit that she brings with her.

I know this is all way too much information- but HELLO, a big part of blogging for me is to be able to vent.

So here goes...

My alarm woke me up at 515am this morning (I had to be at work super early). I woke up feeling really sad... Maybe I dreamed something weird (I can't remember), or maybe it was because I had a long conversation with my Mom the day before. Either way, by the time I made it into the shower I was crying uncontrollably like a complete crazy person.

I miss my family so much. I just kept thinking about how much I have missed over the ten years that I have lived here. My sister is an adult and my Mom... my Mom is Happy. I know it sounds silly and dramatic ( maybe it's the hormones) but couldn't get it together this morning.

I get it... You are suppose to grow up and leave the nest, but what do u do when the nest is so fucking far that you can only afford (afford both time off of work and the $$ to get there) to visit once, MAYBE twice a year??

It was just My Mom, My Sister and Myself for so long; We grew really close- we had too, it was the only way to come out of my parents divorce with any sanity. Of course it wasn't always pretty, but my Mom is the most amazing person in the world- as cliche as is it to say, she truly was our rock. My sister was just a baby, 7 years old, but despite all the "earthquakes" today she is this beautiful, bright eyed young lady, that always sees the best in everything and everybody. Then when I left home at 17 to go to college in the U.S., the distance brought us even closer... But it also brought a lot of tears, heartache and passport stamps. (Ergo the hysterical tears in the shower this morning)

If I'm so miserable why do I still live here??

Again, Aunt Flo makes me a little nutty and irrational once a month- So I'm not always feeling this tormented and depressed.

But to Answer the question- LIFE HAPPENED.

Things have just gotten more and more complex as the years have past and moving back home isn't as simple as buying a one way ticket.

What about My girlfriend of almost 5 years, my friends, my job, all the crap I have accumulated over the years, debts, dreams of graduate school.... The list goes on and on.

I took my depressed ass to work at 6am and worked nonstop till about lunch time, when my girlfriend called me and guessed that something was wrong by the tone of my voice. Of course, tears again.

I finally had a chance to call my Mom around 3 in the afternoon- I got a busy signal, but a few seconds later my BB was ringing and it was my Mom. After a long conversation of spilling everything and My Mom saying all the right things (and tears again) I felt better- even after the crying induced headache and working since the crack of dawn.

When I got home... My girlfriend surprised me with flowers! :-)

Very sweet.

She said she didn't want me to be sad... And she knew flowers make me happy.

Life is such a roller coaster.

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Weigh-in Friday??

Ok… it’s not Friday, but I didn’t forget about it- I’m just on strike!

I’ll weight in again next Friday, I promise!


I totally forgot to mention “Julie and Julia”… the last time I wrote.

I went to go see it last weekend with H. It was SOOOOOO good! I actually went out and bought Mastering the Art of French Cooking Volume 1 and 2 the next day (don’t worry, I got it on some crazy sale- I only paid $11.99!)

You should really go see it!

Anyways…


Here are those Badgley Mischka shoes I was telling you about…

Cute right?!

Well, after doing my budget for the month this morning (which I have updated on the left sidebar), I think I’ve come back to my senses. It’s not that I don’t want those beautiful things, I do, but it doesn’t allow me to reach my goal of getting out of debt and going on all these trips at the same time.

Especially after I just made a $935 payment to pay off credit card #1 again! I used it for my work trip and some other miscellaneous shit that I probably didn’t need.

You’d think I would have learned by now.

Whatever.

It’s paid off again, and I realized how important that zero balance is to me. So no Dior glasses or Bagdley Miskcha shoes.

I have no shame is saying that I will be hitting up Canal street in NYC though! A knock off for $30 bucks sounds like a good compromise to me! Ok- definitely not knock-off shoes (EVER), but a bag and some glasses won’t hurt!

I sound shallow, but I’m really not. Material things don’t bring you happiness, I get that. But it’s all so pretty! :-)

Anywho… with that said. I am really missing my family. So the money is better spent going to see them and doing things with them at home. I’m so excited about spending Christmas with them… can’t wait!!

Have a wonderful weekend everyone!

Long time no write...

Not blogging can mean a couple of things.

1. I'm pmsing and too bitchy to write

2. I'm up to no damn good

In this case it's both.

I'm in Texas for work again... And the expense account means eating crazy just because I can. Plus I haven't worked out since last friday (after I found out that I worked my ass off and then gained a pound)

Whatcha gonna do?

Last night after consuming 3 cosmos in the company of a few of the chefs, I ate filet migon with asparagus and had the most amazing bread pudding made with croissants, dark chocolate, and banana. Yum!

Oh, and I forgot to mention that I've been having this incredible urge to shop. With that said, I managed to get a ride to the outlet mall here yesterday. They had an Off 5th, and a Neiman Marcus Last Call.

I was in nirvana.

Ok, it wasn't exactly the newest stuff, but who cares?! I wasn't buying anything (well- a couple of shirts on sale at banana republic, but that's not the point) I found these fabulous Badgley Mischka heels- nude (with a slight pink tint) peep-toe, with a knot/bow thingy on the toe. Beautiful! (I'll post a photo later.)

That was just the beginning.

Dior Sunglasses (really cute!) for $129 (not bad, right?)

And then I made my way to the shoe department in Neiman Marcus.

Oh. My. Lord.

I didn't know I was such a label whore!

Manolo Blahnik, Louboutin, Prada, Gucci, Dior... I couldn't believe it! I saw Louboutins for $299!! They were a size 6 and I would never be able fit them (I'm a size 10)- but $299!? And Prada for $180?!

Of all the things I saw, I kinda wish I had gotten the Dior glasses.

I guess I have gotten too responsible. I couldn't bring myself to swipe my Amex (the only credit card I kept for work).

When I get back home I am going immediately to our Neiman Marcus Last Call to see what goodies I can find!

*Sigh*

I told my girlfriend yesterday, after my shopping experience, that after our Europe trip next year, I am going to continue to the save $200 a month and call it a "shopping fund".

Good idea, right??

Ok- tired of typing on my Blackberry. I'll be home on friday.

Until then!

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Weight loss challenge conclusion…

This is BULLSHIT!

193.6 lbs

Explain to me how I gained a pound?!

Total Calories out: 11,099
Total Calories in: 7,231
Calorie Deficit: 3868

1 pound= 3500 calories. TECHNICALLY, I should have lost a pound.

You think it is just simple math, calories out greater than calories in and, ta-da you loose weight!

Nope.

Yes, I know Aunt Flo is on the way, but COME ON.


Clearly Jillian is right. Hormones play a major role in your weight loss.

I’ve been reading her book, Mastering your Metabolism she talks about her own struggle with weight loss in her earlier years and what she learned from going to an endocrinologist. Basically her hormone levels were all out of whack which why she had a hard time loosing weight. Here theory is that the foods we eat and our enviorment have so much artificial crap in them that our bodies don’t know what to do with them and it throws our hormones off; which is why she is so hardcore about eating organic whenever possible.

Obviously when a woman has her menstrual cycle her hormones are thrown for a loop.

Hence the weight gain this week.

I still think it is bullshit.

Whatever.

I am not quitting. But if I don’t loose next week, I am going to be pissed.

This is Bullshit.

Weight loss challenge day 4… and day 5…

Where to start… hmmm…

Well. First I’m feeling extremely bloated. This means that b***h Aunt Flo is on her way again. This is not good for the scale.

Oh, and I know today is Weigh-in Friday, but since the weight loss challenge goes through today, I am planning to weigh myself tomorrow morning.

My beloved Angel M….to make a long story short, I did this challenge by myself. She only logged her calories for 1 ½ days and only worked out twice this week. What can I say? I can only motivate her so much. Shit, I still have to find motivation for myself! I love her dearly and of course I support her 100%, but she’ll come around when she is ready. Health and weight loss is very personal, and everyone has to make the decision on there own to commit to it.

For those of you who are new to my blog, I am not one to hold my tongue. AT ALL.

However, I’ll take my bitch factor down just a little and not yell at her…. That wouldn’t help anyways! The truth is- I can’t even complement her on trying, because she didn’t try. I am by no means perfect, and I could have done better this week myself, so it’s not about that. It just a little disappointing because I know how strong she is and how easily she could have completed the challenge if she tried. But in reality, I have been there too and I know, it doesn’t matter what anyone says. So my plan is to back off a little, but encourage her to be healthy.

So anyways…

Today is the last day of the challenge!

I have a extra challenge ahead of me this evening. I am going to dinner and a movie with H.

Yikes!

Ok, it’s not that big of a deal… but lets be real, even when you make good food choices at a restaurant, you are still not 100% sure what goes in it to create the final product. I’m gonna take my chances! I’m hitting the gym before dinner, so that should definitely help.

Oh, guess what I’m going to see?? Julie and Julia! I’m so excited. I read the book a while back, so I am looking forward to it!

Have a wonderful weekend everyone!!

Weight loss challenge day 3….

Woot Woot! Only 2 days left to go!


Calories were a little bit on the high side today… 1500, but it is still within my limits. I was not feeling the gym either, but I went and did my hour of cardio. I had intended on going to kickboxing, but I got to the gym early and did my hour of cardio (elliptical 45 minutes, and stairs 15 minutes- trying to give my shins a break) and was pooped so I went home.

I’m meeting M at the gym tomorrow, so I’ll get a another good workout in.

Completely random…

Grey’s Anatomy season premier is September 24!! Woooooo! I can’t wait!

Have a good night everyone!

Weight Loss challenge Day 2…

I have ice on my shins….

It hurts. Ugh.

I guess I am running incorrectly or something. It’s weird, because when I am running or working out or whatever it doesn’t hurt, but when I stop I get these shooting pains up my shins. I iced them yesterday too, so maybe that will help a little.

We’ll see how it feels tomorrow…but don’t worry I WILL get my hour of cardio in!

I’m doing well with my calorie intake- 1450 today. I had a major sweet tooth at work today, but I made due with dry cereal, fruit loops to be exact!

I got in another hour and 15 minutes of exercise today. I did Cardio Kickboxing and then ran a mile on the treadmill (hence the ice). It was a good workout nevertheless… I burned 650 calories!

Tomorrow is day three… the week is almost over, and I am feeling GOOD!

Weight Loss challenge day 1….

Today is day one of the fitness challenge for M and I!

Wooooo Hooooooooo!

Ok, maybe it’s not that exciting, but the 5 day challenge is off to an excellent start! :-)

We are both logging our calories in sparkpeople.com and sticking to our limits.

I did Jillian’s 30 day shred DVD this morning, and I went walking/jogging with G this evening. Total about an hour and 15 minutes of exercise today… not too shabby, I’m ahead of the game!

Wish me luck at work tomorrow