Hanging off the wagon. Again.

50 pounds is looking very far away. Maybe I need another plan? So yesterday after work I went to the gym and worked out for 45 minutes… great! Right? Then I went home hungry, I ate a cheese quesadilla, the rest of the crab dip with chips, 3 mini snickers ice cream bas, a handful of Edy’s ice cream bites AND 3 smurfs. WHAT THE FUCK. I have no self control. So we are going to try again… baby portions are okay, I don’t have to eat everything. Maybe I need to repeat that to myself a couple hundred times a day? Whatever. So anyways… today; Today, I’m feeling okay I guess. A little sleepy but in good spirits for the most part. It’s only 11am though… so I will let you know later.